Tumor in the Femur

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Erudition

Irene Veldstra
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Monday we had "education" before we left the hospital with the Nurse Case Worker. As I said before, it was hard to hear and quite frightening. Fortunately, my mom and our friend Kerry were able to be there with me and it helped having mom hear about what to expect and help me out here for the next week. 

Kerry is a nurse and was able to take wonderful notes. She was able to summarize quite nicely all of the information and the treatment plan to make a little more sense in bullet point form:

Treatment plan

Chemotherapy

Current treatment is mapped out about 29 weeks, does not necessarily follow a calendar as surgery, low ANCS {Absolute Neutrophil Counts- white blood cell} and fevers will delay some treatments.

All chemotherapy treatment will be provided inpatient at Randall Children’s Hospital. It is anticipated that Irene and Atticus will be admitted to the fourth floor for 2 to 3 days each time of chemo for the next six months. {three weeks on, two weeks off}

Atticus may not be around anyone sick, and if there’s any concerns about fever, runny nose or viral illness please do not visit Atticus. Handwashing is mandatory upon entering home, before eating, after toileting, and before eating food.

Future treatment will be based upon results from scans, and tumor necrosis.

Limb salvage surgery will be at OHSU

Atticus must walk on crutches, as he is not to bear weight on the tumor.

Clinic visits will be twice weekly. 

 

Recommended ideas for how to help Irene, per hospital staff, are gift certificates to hospital cafeterias, gift certificates to New Seasons {walking distance from hospital}, and mattress pad as that bed in hospital for Irene is very stiff.

As you can see, we will be in the hospital a lot, for quite a long time. We will have a couple of weeks off each round from chemo, but we are still visiting the clinic frequently for blood tests and like today, extra IV hydration, anti-nausea medication, blood and platelet transfusions. 


We visited the Orthopaedic Surgeon yesterday at OHSU as a follow up from his biopsy and we learned more about the limb salvage surgery that will happen in 10 or so weeks. He told us the different options that are available and how there are growth implants so he can keep growing and they adjust the implant accordingly. We saw the MRI again of his tumor which always seems stunning every time I see a scan of it. That thing is just taking over his femur! There is no "removing the tumor"... it is a part of his bone, all of which will be removed. They will do more scans after chemo rounds to see how things are going and decide at that point the implant to use and more details on the surgery then. 

Limb Salvage Yard 

Limb Salvage Yard 

Atticus has still been struggling with continued nausea, dizziness and general not feeling well. He's still eating bits of food that my mom makes for him, and he really doesn't want them to leave, as she is a much better cook than I am!  Today at the clinic we talked about the anti-nausea meds and trying to solve it a little bit better and change things up a bit for him, trying to make him more comfortable. 

We are aiming to take one day at a time, still processing and taking in all of the life changes. Thanks again for all of the support, the food, the messages, the cards in the mail, the gifts. We are so amazed at our support system and how much we are loved. 

 

 

 

 

Somniferous

Irene Veldstra
  • Chemo on Friday and Saturday night
  • We are home now
  • My parents are here and are helping so much! 
My new socks, very fitting for how we feel. 

My new socks, very fitting for how we feel. 

Surgery for the port placement started late, we got settled into his room later in the afternoon; they had accessed the port during surgery so it would be ready for chemo to start that evening. 

First, he had to be hydrated quite a bit before they started the chemo so they plugged in some hydration to his port and we waited. Atticus was really sore from the surgery and was on some pain meds and still recovering. I noticed he is always very quiet after surgeries, his eyes closed. I always think he is sleeping until a nurse asks him what his pain level is and he will tell them. 

Chemo started at midnight. They prepped him with some medicine to help with nausea, and I pulled out the oh so comfortable hospital cot and laid down. The first dose, DOXOrubicin, started, was infused over 15 minutes; the second, CISplatin, was infused over four hours. Nurses came and went and I dozed off and on until morning. 

And so it begins. Doxo. 

And so it begins. Doxo. 

No one ever said chemo was a walk in the sunshine dancing in the daisies, but no amount of reading articles or hearing stories of the side effects could ever prepare me for what was to come. I won't tell a story of strength and smiles through the pain. It was pain and tears and sweating and nausea and embarrassment of a teen already struggling with his changing body and the struggle of cancer on top of it all. 

Saturday midnight the chemo started all over again. He had been on IV hydration all day since the chemo infusion and then again after the chemo Saturday night. Sunday started the side effects all over again. 

I understand more now why the chemo is done inpatient and so grateful for it. As per the rumors, the nurses and doctors at Randall are amazing, and kept him as comfortable as possible. There were options of anti-nausea meds and some helped him sleep so he kept choosing that, and I don't blame him for wanting to sleep through all of this. It was incredibly heart-wrenching to watch my son go through this but also comforting knowing he had such a great team watching over him. 

Sunday we had a little visitor, which was perfect timing. Atticus didn't have much energy to hold the little dog, but petting Ollie and giving him a treat helped soothe him. 

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There were more tests and hydration through Saturday and Sunday night, anti-nausea meds and more sleeping. I had friends come by to bring me food and texting to make sure I was caring for myself as well. 

I would take walks around the neighborhood, taking different paths each time to find something new, taking pictures and letting it rain on me. 

This means so much more to me now

This means so much more to me now

Monday Atticus looked a little more life-like and was definitely ready to go home. He was still getting hydrated but they wanted to be sure he could drink water before we went home. We also had education by our Nurse Case Manager, and I was so glad my friend Kerry and my mom were there to help me process and hear about the care and keeping of Atticus at home. It felt very frightening and overwhelming with fevers and testings and blood transfusions.  We went over the treatment plan again, this time with more questions, and clearing up some confusion that had shown up over the weekend. 

My mom has been here, staying with the girls over the weekend, cleaning house and cooking lots of delicious meals. My dad arrived today, we have appointments lined up for this week, which doesn't include the possible emergencies. It's so nice to have them here as extra support during this difficult first week of treatment. 

Atticus was a bit better today, asked for his favorite Oma meal, so we were thrilled about that. He's just eating little bits and is wanting to watch a bit of tv and picked up his phone so it's nice to see him coming back. 

And lastly, a lovely graffiti reminder down the hill from the hospital campus: It's okay to cry. 

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Lugubrious

Irene Veldstra
  • MRI, Chest X-Ray, Bone Scan, PET scan, audio test and EKG done
  • We got official diagnosis - Osteosarcoma; treatment is chemo and a limb salvage surgery
  • Friday: surgery for portacath placement
  • Chemo starts Friday night, Atticus and I at Randall until Monday
  • Anneka's Sweet 16th
  • This is really it's own full time job 

So grateful for the tire fairies who came over and changed my tire for me

So grateful for the tire fairies who came over and changed my tire for me

Tuesday the adventure started with a flat tire as we were leaving to go get the MRI and bone scans done. Thank goodness for Lyft, there was one nearby and got us to our appointment, right on time. 

Atticus had an MRI on his right leg, as he had mentioned some pain in his ankle, they saw something on the X-ray, so she ordered an MRI to check that out. He had a chest x-ray and then a bone scan as well. We showed up at 8:30 in the morning and he had to get an injection of a tracer for the bone scan, and we sat in the cafe and waited for our MRI appointment. Fortunately, the MRI was early and they called us to come down, so the scans all went a lot faster than we thought, as they were all scheduled throughout the day. They just brought us from one place to the next after the MRI, then done! 

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Wednesday was the PET scan at Legacy Meridian. We are so grateful to have such amazing people in our lives - Sandra, who is a mom to a couple of Atticus' best friends, pulled some strings to have her do Atticus' PET scan, since that is what she does for a living. It was so comforting for him to have someone familiar and who cares about him to go to, and she explains things so beautifully and just made one more Hard Thing a little bit easier on us. 

 

Thursday was the day I was looking forward to, yet dreaded all at the same time. I thought of so many terrible things the doctor could say to us and fortunately, none came to pass. After all of the tests and scans, we found the cancer was only in his distal femur, it had not spread anywhere - not his lungs, not his other ankle, not in his lymph nodes. Such an incredible relief! 

The treatment for Osteosarcoma is chemotherapy, and later, surgery called "Limb Salvage Surgery", which will take place at OHSU. More to come on the surgery later (because I don't actually know).  What I do know, however, is that there is not an actual Limb Salvage Yard with some 2004's out back (I checked). 

 

 


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Friday was Port placement surgery day, and we arrived at Randall not knowing what to expect or how this day would go. Surgery was running behind and I'm okay with that - one, we are here, I have no where to go, this IS what is on the schedule today; two- I don't want a surgeon to rush through surgery with my child, I don't want her rushing on someone else either, especially if there are complications. It's cool, we will wait. 

 

Dual Lumen Port. Very exciting stuff in the land of medicine. 

Dual Lumen Port. Very exciting stuff in the land of medicine. 

 

 

Port placement went well, I  met Atticus in recovery and then they brought us to Floor Green Squirrel (4) where we found our room and nurses waiting for us with great anticipation. There was a rush of human bodies poking and prodding and starting IV's and talking with many words. So much excitement about a dual lumen port too! I do enjoy watching people geek out about what they love. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       

 

I walked into the room behind them, looking around and it suddenly all hit me that, here we are, in the hospital. We will be spending a great portion of our lives here now. I sat on the couch with my bag and let the tears flow, watching my son who looked in so much pain and nothing I could do about it.  Doctors and nurses continued to talk to me and I realized, this is a great place to cry. No one cares, or even notices - I sit here with tears streaming down my face and they just keep talking to me like I'm a normal human. I love that. All emotions are acceptable (and expected!) here. 


And not to forget... Anneka's 16th birthday was Friday as well.  In an effort to not completely ruin her special day, our dear friends April and Esme offered their home to host teenagers who wanted to celebrate with Anneka. It will always be a day to remember for sure. Happy Birthday Anneka... I admire your badassery so much, your passion for the things you love and your ability to see the truth and light in difficult situations. I want to be like you when I grow up. 

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Underpinning

Irene Veldstra
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Yesterday, my friend Susan from Homer, Alaska posted this on her Facebook page

🌟Please read! I need your help 🌟

One of a parent’s worst nightmares, “It’s Cancer”. The chilling, inescapable reality has hit one of my dear friends, her teenage son, and all of us who love them. I’ve known Atticus since he was a tot, and have watched him, from a distance unfortunately, grow into a talented, beautiful, young man who makes this world a brighter, better place. 💕 He is now in for an epic battle against Osteosarcoma and could use a few people in his corner. 💪

What I need from you:
Most of you know that I have a “side-gig” helping people better their skin through Rodan+Fields. This month I am donating my paycheck from R+F to “Atticus’ Healing Journey” so please, if you’ve thought about trying R+F for your skin or to boost your lashes, now is a great time.
If you don’t want to better your skin, or you already buy it from someone else, you can still help by sharing this post and referring your friends and your family to message me. I promise to take good care of them. 😉

There are 2 weeks left in the month, let’s show this family some love. ❤️

Susan was one of our Occupational Therapists when Anneka and Atticus were little. She witnessed a lot of tough (and embarrassing) times in our home and life during those days and was always such a great support. We still carry a lot of her OT tips and tricks with us even still (time to wrap someone in a burrito!). 

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Go over to Rodan+Field and find some Life Changing skin care products, some amazing eyelash booster, and go over to Susan's page and order some stuff, and tell her thank you! The proceeds go to my family for lost income while I am on FMLA, and other unforeseen expenses that come up. 

THANK YOU SUSAN! 

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Next, I updated our Amazon Shopping List  to include some other essentials for Atticus and the home. I know some of you have wanted to send care packages to him, so I made some ideas for that as well.  I want to reiterate that these are ideas, they don't have to come from Amazon, but it's an easy way for me to make a list and for everyone to see it. Even if you are crafty and want to make him a chemo beanie, we love hand made gifts too! 

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I also started a Chemo Board on my Pinterest if you want to check it out for ideas on how to help, care package ideas, or you can send me tips or tricks I may have missed that would help too. 

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You may also notice some changes to the sidebar on how you can tangibly help, so be sure to check that regularly and see if there is anything you want to do. Top priority right now is I need some cleaning fairies to help make sure my house is clean for a chemo patient

We are taking it easy the last couple of days, chilling at home, getting ready for a very busy week ahead.